The fear of failure is the tendency to put obstacles in our path so that we can make external attributions for failure - this is bad! I used to do this a lot and it got me nowhere but sadness and shame. I have been turned down by several jobs, i have struggled in class at university and school (during my Alevels i strongly felt that i was going to fail and I developed a very poor, unhealthy attitude). I have struggled with hearing important information, I have been let down by friends but I got this far!!
My blog title ; 'May we live a little braver' which goes along the lines with 'Live a little bolder, laugh a little harder and make the world a little bit brighter' - is such a lovely saying as it is basically declaring you to just quit worrying. I'm a dangerous over-thinker and have crazy paranoia, i know - i admit it but words of sayings and people assist with living on a higher, much better note, i want to live and tell others. This world, which seems as though people are losing faith in humanity with - and some parts of me don't blame them but in my correct opinion, they are not seeing enough to conclude their reason - that this world is messed up. It kind of is but there's more to it than that truly.
People ask me too often what i want to be when i grow up - the problem with me is that I generally have no clue. I thought i did but i was wrong. It changes everyday! For all of our awakening lives we have followed the regulations of going to school then to college, getting into university and indeed getting a job, marrying your love one (which still applies hopefully) and making babies for them to do the same. Yes, this is life, the circle of life. (Lion Kings always comes into my head when i say this). The competition is far too high after graduation and luck is running short if i don't do something. It is currently all about enriching my CV, getting some experience, doing some research and asking my neighbors questions then hopefully i see a bigger picture of what i want to do.
'Let things flow as they shall'
I would be doing endless research and seizing opportunities to travel so i can meet people, see what's out there, get new ideas, form plans etc and again all this would perhaps form a successful career or future as mentioned above. Thankfully this has worked for me so far and i am having huge hope for a promising future. My mother is my own inspiration, she is a wonderful strong lady and forever tells me to keep living my dream - she is 100 percent behind me. Just what i need too.
For me, it's all about raising awareness to the level of hidden discrimination against those who have a disability, however 'hearing' they may seem. As unfortunate as it may be, I feel that I have to work even harder for my success as well as others in my position. There is still a damn problem with race too and being a woman but this is nothing to complain about surely, we are fighters.
Anyhoo - cut the chatter, a while ago I was spending hours emailing companies, entering competitions, filling in applications and searching on the net for work or anything that could raise my chance for a great career.
One day, I got an email back from the CRCC ASIA (which stands for China Recruitment Ltd and China Consulting Ltd) which is the award winning leading provider of internships in China - a company from the British Council - saying I have won a business scholarship to work for the British Embassy in China, Beijing!! There were over 100 applicants for this position and i was picked! ME! I couldn't believe it.
I will be working with Carma Elliot who is the executive director at China's largest international NGO (non-governmental organisations) - 'Half the Sky Foundation'. With 1,500 staff working in 52 cities across China on a budget of $20 million! She is currently leading a major transformation project in which all operational staff would transition to Chinese government employment. In addition, she is managing a $7 million program to train and certify every child welfare worker in China. Like as if!? She is even responsible for the nation's relationship with China's ever-expanding business capital. I feel so privileged!
My role will be to draft a strategic sponsorship plan at the cultural and education section at the British Embassy. I am due to leave at the end of May to start working with them for a month! I shall be writing during my stay there so hopefully some of you will still be returning readers! Furthermore, some of you may already be aware that i was also offered a teaching job (Subject: English as a foreign language) in a province in China (TBA) from July to the end of August and I have kindly accepted the offer so I will be away for three months on this truly exciting practical and professional experience!!! yay mee! I would also gain exposure to China's dynamic culture and lifestyle which is exactly the opportunity to invest in my future!
I do try to live by the saying - 'broaden your horizon and live extraordinary' - i'm getting there!!
My next post will be about my musical nature - keep attached my lovelies x
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